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Monthly Archive: May 2015

May 29

Preparation

I spent all morning cleaning. I tackled the playroom.  Okay, so it’s not a playroom, so much as a play CORNER of my dining room.  But it’s got a cute little rug down, and shelves along the wall that I bought and assembled.  Tables that have seen better days, and so, so many toys.  I’ve …

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May 28

Tenderness

There is this incredible sweetness and beauty in raising children.  There is chaos and frustration and holy-moly-if-you-don’t-stop-whining-I’m-going-to-cry-right-along-with-you too, but last night, my twelve year old fell asleep with her head cradled on my chest and it was so achingly perfect. It wasn’t a great night.  Heat, exhaustion, hunger – I don’t know what it was, …

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May 27

End of an Era

I’ve loved being home with my kids. I start my new job next week, and I’m mostly delighted (slightly panicked about the changes it’ll bring, but mostly absolutely shocked and thrilled at how perfect this job fits into what I was looking for at this stage).  But what’s more surprising to me is how many …

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May 27

So, so many updates

Major life changes going on around here these days.  We’re wrapping up preschool, and getting ready for Mama to join the world of employment. The absolutely perfect job appeared just when I was starting to think about maybe I should go back to work in the fall.  Now, having accepted said job, I’m not sure …

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May 22

Grief

Grief is an odd thing, for me.  I’ve had limited experience with it, thank God, but there are really only two losses that still have the ability to sneak up on me.  I’ll be bopping along, and suddenly I’m teary-eyed and have to go away somewhere where I can be alone to mourn. One is …

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May 20

The last time

Julianna wakes up every morning and comes to curl up on my lap.  She’s groggy and unsure of everything, and seems to require a little snuggle before she can face her day. My older two used to do this too. Every morning, from the time they were old enough to walk, they’d wake up, realize …

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May 06

And then she was five

My living room is littered with dollhouses, magnet dolls, and a DocMobile.  The soundtrack to my morning is the clicking of the keyboard as I write, the sound of Doc McStuffins (because that’s the only show she likes to watch), and the chattering of an entranced Julie.  This is her favorite, I think.  When the …

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May 01

Reasons You Shouldn’t Invite My Five Kids to Dinner on Friday

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We normally do Shabbat dinner at my house.  It’s not always done WELL.  Some Fridays, it’s haphazard and chaotic, and I don’t manage to light the candles until late at night after I’ve managed to wrestle everyone into bed.  But there are a lot of Fridays when the table is set beautifully, the challah is …

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May 01

Aging Gracefully

I don’t think I want to. I’ve got to think about birth control.  My baby is five, which means that birth control I’ve been using for the past five years needs to be addressed. Thinking of that just reminds me that I actually haven’t had a physical in about ten years, maybe longer.  I don’t …

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