Jessie had big plans for this summer, and when covid-19 hit, we weren’t sure if any of it was going to happen. Turns out that it all probably is going to happen, which is both thrilling and terrifying. Tougas, the apple orchard where she was scooping ice cream all last fall, is opening, on a …
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May 09
The day you became a mother
I don’t think the pain of a miscarriage ever really goes away. It’s been 18 years for me, and I’ve got three healthy, happy kids now, and there are times when I’ll hear a certain song that brings me back to that time, and I’m swept up in the sadness and grief and loss. It’s …
May 09
Week 8
Will this ever end? And if the answer is of course it will, when is it going to happen? How? Covid-19 isn’t going anywhere. There have been rumors of various treatments that might or might not help. Vaccines that are whipping along the approval process but are still months away. I feel like we need …
May 09
Friday
Friday is the one day that is distinct now. All the other days flow into the next, with nothing to distinguish or differentiate them. Marc and I struggled to find a way to make Shabbat special, because all of the things that used to mark the day are not happening now. We don’t get the …
May 07
All is well
Got Lizziebeth’s nails trimmed and fur cut way down, she looks like an entirely new dog now. Not entirely sure I love it – I miss my scruffy little mess. Now she’s all sleek and looks like a shorn sheep. The good news is that we also got her a new leash, and it’s specifically …
May 01
Coronavirus – 6 weeks in
We started our self-isolation exactly six week ago today. At least the kids did, Marc started a week later. Overall, this has been great for us. I mean, it’s exceptionally stressful and scary, because nobody knows when it’s going to end, and there’s this plague out there, and you don’t know who has it. Everyone …
Apr 29
Just ten more minutes – Julianna Ruth at ten years old
Julie is my reward, I used to say. She’s my easy baby, the one who put herself on a schedule at two weeks, slept thru the night ridiculously early, ate whatever I offered her, and potty trained herself just after her second birthday. She’s my social butterfly. Even with all the teenage angst that she’s …
Apr 21
Blue skies
It’s been an odd day. Yesterday was terrible, I was in the worst mood, and all I wanted was my life back. My friends, my car, my happy little schedule. My kids dancing off to school and my baby girl happy. Sam and Jessie are managing this well, but I feel like my little Julie …
Apr 20
I miss my life
We’re on the fifth week of the lockdown, and I’m officially losing my mind. I’ve lost any semblance of patience and am so frustrated and tired and I just want my old life back. With happy kids who had school and friends and a dog who could go to the dog park and a husband …
Apr 07
Day 32 – Lessons So Far
1 – Julie requires structure. I’ve learned this before, but have to relearn it over and over again because it somehow doesn’t sink in for me. From the beginning, when she put herself on a sleeping schedule by the time she was a week or to old, Julie gravitates towards order and predictability. I prefer …
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