I just send Marc into the school to volunteer with set up for the Bookfair tonight. I had signed up originally and should be the one doing it, but I’ve been without my Julie girl a lot this week, and I miss her. More to the point, I think she misses me. And when she wakes up, she would have been heartbroken to discover that I was gone – so I stayed here.
With Sam, and with Jessie to a lesser extent, I was absolutely primary in their lives. Sam liked nobody else, and Jessie was okay with other people, but really only thrilled to betsy with me. But Julianna is so much more social and interactive. Yesterday, my friend Sara came in and Julianna offered her a potato chip. Which isn’t really earth shattering or anything – but it took Julie noticing that she was there, liking her, knowing that Sara likes a chip, and thinking to offer it. All of which was new to me, because Sam, to this day, wouldn’t acknowledge that an adult had entered the room. Jessie probably would have smiled at her, but been too shy to offer. Whereas Julie was just confident that Sara would of course welcome the offer of a chip, they had shared chips in the past, and didn’t hesitate to be friendly.
I forget sometimes that she is still so little, and so needy. She still needs her mama. She is happier when I’m around. Thank goodness that I’m able to stay home with her, I’d really hate leaving her every day….